As I was reflecting on my day today, the first thing that came to mind was Gabe's doctors appointment at Texas Children's. Due to Covid, my husband wasn't able to come with me so, I was trying to take as many notes as possible to get all of the information that we would need for us to talk about our plans for our baby boy.
One thing for sure is that I didn't know that there were different types of cochlear implants to choose from. Another fact, is that I didn't know how fast this process would take as soon as we got to Texas. Honestly, its A LOT!
Do you remember those moments where you couldn't wait for something to happen?? You couldn't wait so you would pray and pray and pray. Then, God blesses you and your like "WAIT!" "Let's slow these brakes down!" "This is A LOT!"
Tomorrow is my birthday and, on my last night of being twenty six I am researching on the best implant for my baby to hear. The best implant for him to be able to communicate with us. The best implant for him to be able to use for "somewhat" the majority of his life.
Things have been coming at us very quickly. Decisions after decisions after decisions.... Life changing decisions! We have the deaf community wanting things one way, doctors wanting things another way.. Will he do strictly sign language? Will he have total communication (both sign language and verbal)? Do you really want to implant your baby? What if he was meant to be deaf? Are you changing him for you.. or, for him?
God is and ALWAYS,ALWAYS will be our ONLY light in these moments.
If you are lost, overwhelmed, confused, angry, etc.. God is.. and ALWAYS,ALWAYS will be your ONLY light in these moments.
Twenty six was learning... Twenty 27 is growing...
Twenty 27.. I am ready for you!
Love,
Kay
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