Philippians 2:14-16

I recently seen a video on a mom that was fighting for her life.

She was diagnosed with stage three cancer, given a few months to live, and then placed on hospice.

She recently passed away and was survived by her husband and their son.

I continued to watch the videos that her husband made of her telling her family goodbye in her last days.

He also recorded her in bed laying next to her son sleeping and, telling her husband not to tell her little boy what happened.

That video broke me.

This mom would have loved to be able to spend any day with her son.

I came from a similar situation and, I know my dad would have loved to spend any day with me.

I need to not complain.

We are on year two of this hearing journey and eight months on this autism journey.

We are fighting two battles that are going against each other.

I just want to hear my sweet boy's voice.

The most the audiologist could state yesterday was that being that there is an autism diagnosis we are down to a "maybe" he will speak.

It isn't a definite "yes" or, a definite "no".

Just "maybe".

With tears I asked, "Was the implant even worth it?"

She then proceeded to say, " Yes, without the implants he would not have been able to hear your voice, dad's voice, siblings, environmental sounds.

Without the implants, Michaela, we weren't able to achieve that."

It is so hard not to complain in this season.

You see through these obstacles God is placing us exactly where we need to be.

He wants us to lean on Him.

He is making us stronger.

He is stripping us of ourselves.

He is making us better Christians, better husbands/wives, better dads/moms, better friends.

The day I got saved Jesus took me from a place of fear and doubt that I had on my life.

I am forever grateful and, thankful that He didn't leave me where he found me.

God has called us to be examples to those that surround us.

He doesn't want us to complain.

He doesn't want us to murmur.

He wants us to trust Him.

Trust His plans.

"Do everything without grumbling or arguing,so that you may become blameless and pure, “children of God without fault in a warped and crooked generation.”Then you will shine among them like stars in the sky16 as you hold firmly to the word of life. And then I will be able to boast on the day of Christ that I did not run or labor in vain."

If Gabe never talks His Glory was still shown.

God has already won.