But those who wait on the LORD Shall renew their strength; They shall mount up with wings like eagles, They shall run and not be weary, They shall walk and not faint.
- Isaiah 40:31
We are in such a different season right now. It is truly the WAITING season. We have gotten use to playing music loud in the car so that Gabe can FEEL the vibrations. We have gotten use to getting in his face so that he can SEE our smile and how much we love him.
May 11, 2021 changes a lot. Sometimes you get caught up in everything and, you are not really able to grasp the blessing that God has set before you. It is truly a blessing for Gabriel to be a candidate for the cochlear implant. His big day is about two weeks from now. We are extremely excited about the changes that the therapist and doctors say will happen. His first words, his reaction to sound, and the possibility of changes in his personality will be such an amazing sight to see! Gabriel has honestly had his own little silent world since birth. After surgery, there will be no more guessing on what he can hear.
His hearing aids have taught me a lot about patience and, what it truly means to Wait on the Lord. Do you know those moments where you're praying, praying, and praying? Those moments where you are constantly wondering whether God can hear you. You do not know if he can hear you but, you have Faith that he does hear you. That's kind of how the past 6 months have been.
We received the hearing aids and we were so very excited thinking that he could possibly hear something. We didn't know exactly what Gabriel can hear, and at this moment we still do not. On the days where it becomes very overwhelming, I am able to look at Gabe's smile and have Faith that one day he will be able to not only FEEL our worship songs in the car but, hear them. I have Faith that one day he will be able to not only SEE our facial expressions of how we feel about him but, hear the words "I love you" from our mouths.
A few days ago his therapist was sooo very excited and, she stated: "You are almost to the finish line! Two weeks left to go! Only two more weeks left of rehearsal practice before the big day!"
She also stated: "There will be no more guessing!" These were the most comforting words that I have heard in a while.
On the very first day that the doctors told me that there was even a possibility that Gabe could not hear.. I was upset, and didn't sleep at all that night. Ohh the many prayers that were stated, the therapies, the moving to Texas for the absolute best doctors in the country to perform this surgery, it ALLL comes down to Tuesday, May 11th!
No more Guessing, Kay! I am nervous but, extremely excited at the same time!!!
We have soooo many doctors appointments, scheduled therapies, and honestly A LOT of how well he does with the implant really lies a lot on us. Those things will come but, for now I'm going to embrace this moment.
Take this lesson from me and, Wait on the Lord. STOP trying to fix it yourself.
God, can really move mountains.
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